After I get my course cards next week, I’ll officially be a part of the “unemployed” bracket here in the Philippines. At 19 years of age, I then can say, “I am now officially a college graduate.”
Graduation (the walk) will be sometime next year; I’m not yet really sure when (waitta’go kid!). What’s next for this kid, who grew up with everything that he ever needed was right within his reach? Will I find a job? So does that mean I’ll have a boss of my own? Which then sums up to work loads?
I’ve never worked for money my entire life. I was lucky that we had the means to live a convenient life. That’s why I think I don’t really value and appreciate material things that I have. In my On the Job Training, technically, I had to work for money. It was part of the package; it was part of the deal. I wasn’t paid much. It was more of an allowance kind of pay. But I can say that “money earned is sweeter than money that is given to you”. That couple of hundred Pesos really meant something to me. And as I told my mom, I already have a disposable income, even though I technically do not even have an income yet.
I’m not pressured or anything. It’s just that, of course, my parents would want me helping them school my little sister and help them financially in family expenses. And if ever I screw up, hey, I still have a lot to learn about; and at least, I’m not going to waste that much time for I’m not even in my twenties yet!
What bothers me is that, what will I be after college? What are the things that interest me? What do I love doing? What is my passion? There was a time that I wanted to be a Chef. I wanted to study culinary. I love food. I like cooking. But then, I realized that this wasn’t my passion, I was just fond of it. It could be like a special interest of some sort. But I don’t see my future in that industry.
I also wanted to be an actor. Inspired by Matt LeBlanc (Joey Tribbiani in the sitcom FRIENDS). But I didn’t bother taking acting lessons of even joining theater clubs. I wanted to be a news reporter; a news anchor. I wanted to be a journalist; I just don’t think that I can take the pressure of the said profession.
I want to be a writer. I know, I know, I’m still not that good in constructing cohesive sentences and putting my thoughts into words. I don’t even have a deep vocabulary. But I want to write; that’s why I gave blogging a try. I want to author my own book in the future; a book about life.
Familiar with the movie ‘Hitch’ starring Will Smith and Eva Mendez? Yes, I want to be like Hitch, a love-doctor kind of guy. But not in that kind of fashion, well, not really. I want to write a book about love. I know I’m getting too cheesy, but I just want to release shit. I want to impart to other people my experiences and how I handled shit of my own. I want them to realize things at an early stage and not commit the mistakes and the stupidities that I did. I can say that I’ve been through a lot considering my young age. I don’t want people committing suicide because of heart problems. I don’t want people’s lives destroyed because of severe depression relating to love. I want to reach out. I want to help. This is one of the items in my “to do list before I die”.
Going back about working, in what industries am I interested in? In what departments? What I know is that, I want a people-related work. I mean, I want lots of interaction and people relations. I’m a “people-guy”; ‘sociable’ if you may. So if ever I’ll be looking for a job, I would want a job wherein I get to mingle with different people. Or am I just saying that because I’m desperately wanting to get out of the environment that I’m in, break-free, and with high hopes and fingers-crossed, eventually find my princess?
Ah, princesa, where art thou? I know I’m just saying this because I want a new environment to move around… A new environment where I’ll find princesa.
grysh said,
December 15, 2006 at 4:28 pm
wow.. I see you are graduating soon.. congratulations! i admit finding a job here in our country is really tough. But I’m sure you’ll be able to find one..
sometimes, our mind can really trick ourselves. we see someone who is great in cooking and we’ll eventually love to be a chef.. haha..
lurchie said,
December 15, 2006 at 5:25 pm
hey u..
congrats! hehe thank you for dropping by my site.. 
ditto..!
ur a programmer..? frustrated writer? matchmaker..?
i wish you luck finding a job.. i had trouble, they had trouble.. some get lucky, but as you’ll soon find out, some would become floaters and just have trouble settling down. latez!
lurchie said,
December 15, 2006 at 5:34 pm
kindly scratch out the programmer bit. LoL.. i thought u were typing some tags on ur previous post. i guess not..hehehe pardon moi..
crimsondevotchka said,
December 15, 2006 at 8:33 pm
it sounds like you want to help people, and meet a lot of people, feels like there’s a depth to your character – social work sounds like something you might want to consider, even if on the side.
gbert said,
December 15, 2006 at 8:55 pm
cool! i didn’t know you had this other blog, and man, it’s in wordpress! what a convenience! at least i get to read the other side of you, especially, the english side of you.. haha will this be permanent?
anyway, congrats, you’re graduating at such a young age, me too..
but seriously, i admire your idealism, you will reach heights!
karmi said,
December 15, 2006 at 9:19 pm
you moved pala.. dito ka na ba? congrats dahil gradating ka na.. actually, 19 yrs. old lang din ako nung grumaduate ako..
basta, follow what your heart’s desire is.. i know you’ll succeed sa kahit na anong gagawin mo.. and might just meet your prinsesa… you’ll never know..
karmi said,
December 15, 2006 at 9:20 pm
oo, naka-moderate ung comments.. ung mga spammers kasi eh…
ralph said,
December 15, 2006 at 9:30 pm
@ grysh – thanks!
@lurchie – a frustrated writer i guess. thanks!
@crimson – yea… that would be nice… but i dont think that ’social-work’ pays well though
@gbert- yea. i just don’t advertise it.
this is the place where it all started. i started blogging here. i just revived the site 
thanks dude!
@ate ame – no, i didnt move. as i’ve told you, this is where i started. i opted to convert my tabulas blog into a Filipino blog. english entries will now be posted here.
i just revived the site 
and btw, you should also be writing your comments in english!
utakGAGO said,
December 15, 2006 at 9:48 pm
yey yey!
you’re now at wordpress!
wala lang. with regards to your post..
we have many questions in life. ako man, tinatanong ko sa sarili ko kung anong course ba ang kukunin ko.
basta didiskartehan ko na lang.
graduating ka na rin pala! weeeeeee! gudlak sa future hahahah! [lol]
manilenya said,
December 16, 2006 at 12:32 am
wow welcome sa wordpress kapatid
ei make up your mind
ano ba talaga gusto mo sa buhay?
jack of all trade?
heniways gud luck sayo
ralph said,
December 16, 2006 at 4:28 pm
@ utakGAGO – i started here at wordpress
@ ate nalen – and as i told everyone, i started blogging here
i still dont know what i really want. dont pressure me!! haha
manilenya said,
December 18, 2006 at 10:41 am
lol! wahehehehehhe sounds prinepressure ba kita? sowee
okey enjoy life na lang nga 
hellboy said,
December 18, 2006 at 5:04 pm
i surely need to know more about princesa. she must be a fairy, right?
you better wake up cos fairies jus live in tales and the most dangerous thing in a man’s life is getting his ass involved in a love story. btw you better think of a part time and going to university, that’s gonna help you better than day dreaming
karmi said,
December 19, 2006 at 10:41 am
so english comment.. ok here goes..
speechless..
hehehe..
i just can’t seem to find the right words to say.. uuummmm…
hahha.. naubusan ako, sorry.. all day na kasi akong nage-english eh.. cge, ill try to write something in english.. next times..
meri krismas!
mei said,
December 19, 2006 at 3:58 pm
so, we’re supposed to comment in english here? because this is an english blog? oh, come on dude!
wahahahahaha!! *nosebleed*
seriously now, (naks!) i think you would be a good professor ralph. you want interaction with people right? or, a trainor for HR departments. or a pre-school teacher! weeeehhh!!! nothing’s more fun than that, i tell you!
nao said,
December 21, 2006 at 12:38 pm
merry christmas and happy new year Ralph!
jamie said,
December 21, 2006 at 6:53 pm
yo ralph… cool place you got here. anyhoo…. congratulations on your upcoming grad!!! we’re both formally profesional bums!!!!
loved the movie HITCH super! i even memorized some parts of the film…. i have this gut feel i’ll need the pick up lines somewhere along the way LOL (;
go write a book… but then… please dont make it toooo depressing… nyahaha… see where im going with this?! nyaha
paupau said,
December 30, 2006 at 11:00 am
congrats ulit! happy new year! and see you soon! (how many times have we said that?!)
ralph said,
January 3, 2007 at 4:59 pm
@manilenya – well, somewhat… hahaha
@hellboy – argh. it’s hard to explain! lolz
@karmi – lol
@mei – yea, am somewhat interested in HR. but a prof?! well, i’ll still think about that!
@nao –
Happy New Year!
@jamie – yeo. thanks!
yea… technically we are. lol
no, you dont really need pick-up lines. what you need are ‘phrases’
no, it wont be too depressing!
@paupau –
uhm… i dunno! haha 
reg927 said,
January 4, 2007 at 1:41 am
i would love to be a writer too! i wrote for my school newspaper back in highschool. you are young so go for what you love!